Letting go is one of those things that is easier said than done. Letting go can be scary. We hold on so tight to everything we know. We constantly claim to have forgiven and forgotten, but how often is that really true? I found a song today that has matched my thoughts recently. The first part of the song says "I can't believe what she said, I can't believe what he did. Oh, don’t they know it’s wrong, Don’t they know it’s wrong? Well maybe there’s something I missed, but how could they treat me like this. It’s wearing out my heart the way they disregard..." I don't think any of us can say honestly that we haven't thought this way before. Two days ago, if you had read my mind, this is pretty much what it would have said. We try so hard to put the blame on other people instead of even considering that we may be the cause of a problem.
Yesterday in church we sang the song Forever Reign by Hillsong. (If you haven't heard this song, listen to it! You can find the link to it on the "Song of the Day" page.) We sang that song at camp this past year and it was one of my favorites. While singing it yesterday, I got a smack in the face. For almost two years now, I've let bitterness and selfishness in a certain situation blind me without even really realizing it. Because I didn't let go of that bitterness as soon as it began, it grew. It made me a hostile mess towards certain people. Sure, I got away from it for weeks at a time, but it always came back. Sunday was the first time I had heard that song since camp and for some reason, it opened my eyes. While standing there I decided that I was tired of being bitter. It's exhausting! My prayer at that moment was just that God would forgive me for letting bitterness take over and that He would give me strength to finally just LET IT GO and move on. Proving to me yet again that He is always listening, God filled me with peace. I can now, after two years, honestly say that I've let go. Because of that, my life is going to be a million times better. Even the rest of that day was better than I could have imagined because I didn't have that anger always on my mind.
Letting go was like a massive weight being lifted. It's amazing to see how much God can do through something as ordinary as a song. I never thought that I would be able to truly forgive and forget. The verse that comes to my mind is Philippians 4:13. "I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me." I never could have done it on my own. I wouldn't even have had a chance. Only God is getting me through this life. Because of Him, I can be sure that no matter what, I'm going to be okay.
"Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms. The riches of your love will always be enough..." ~Forever Reign
Yesterday in church we sang the song Forever Reign by Hillsong. (If you haven't heard this song, listen to it! You can find the link to it on the "Song of the Day" page.) We sang that song at camp this past year and it was one of my favorites. While singing it yesterday, I got a smack in the face. For almost two years now, I've let bitterness and selfishness in a certain situation blind me without even really realizing it. Because I didn't let go of that bitterness as soon as it began, it grew. It made me a hostile mess towards certain people. Sure, I got away from it for weeks at a time, but it always came back. Sunday was the first time I had heard that song since camp and for some reason, it opened my eyes. While standing there I decided that I was tired of being bitter. It's exhausting! My prayer at that moment was just that God would forgive me for letting bitterness take over and that He would give me strength to finally just LET IT GO and move on. Proving to me yet again that He is always listening, God filled me with peace. I can now, after two years, honestly say that I've let go. Because of that, my life is going to be a million times better. Even the rest of that day was better than I could have imagined because I didn't have that anger always on my mind.
Letting go was like a massive weight being lifted. It's amazing to see how much God can do through something as ordinary as a song. I never thought that I would be able to truly forgive and forget. The verse that comes to my mind is Philippians 4:13. "I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me." I never could have done it on my own. I wouldn't even have had a chance. Only God is getting me through this life. Because of Him, I can be sure that no matter what, I'm going to be okay.
"Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms. The riches of your love will always be enough..." ~Forever Reign
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