So, kind of a joint post today because it got me thinking as well...
I am not a courageous person. I try to be, because I have a lot to say, but really, I'm not. My hands shake when I try to speak up in sunday school! I have been given the ability to give some good advice because when I'm asked for it, I completely let God take over. Anything that is said to whoever I'm talking to is simply what I'm being told to say. This happens when I'm not asked, too, but speaking when I'm not being spoken to has never come naturally to me. Sometimes I'll overhear a situation being discussed and it's almost like a switch gets turned on. Ten things I feel like I should say immediately come into my head, but I can't open my mouth.
Recently my youth group went out to witness. We went out in groups of three and just talked to people. I didn't, though... Not because I didn't know what to say, but it was like there was a battle going on between my head, heart, and mouth. In my head, I had replies up the wazoo, but I couldn't let them out. It was frustrating! I wanted so badly to reach out to these people and to help out my team, but when I tried to open my mouth, I froze. Fear completely took over me. Ever since that night, it has bugged me. Here God has given me this ability to help people, and I let fear get the best of me.
It's an amazing feeling when I can help someone. With my friends, they can come to me with anything and after some prayer, I can usually help them out. It's something that means a lot to me. I always want to be there for people and to be able to help them through things. I know well how wonderful it is to have a rock to cling to during a storm.
This summer, one of my big goals is to speak up. I don't want to let anymore opportunities slip by me. We aren't guaranteed a tomorrow with someone that we love. Sitting back and not taking every opportunity to be there, hug them, make them feel better, share Christ with them, and tell them how much I love them because I'm afraid isn't how I want to live my life! I want to be FEARLESSLY devoted to living my life for Christ!
I am not a courageous person. I try to be, because I have a lot to say, but really, I'm not. My hands shake when I try to speak up in sunday school! I have been given the ability to give some good advice because when I'm asked for it, I completely let God take over. Anything that is said to whoever I'm talking to is simply what I'm being told to say. This happens when I'm not asked, too, but speaking when I'm not being spoken to has never come naturally to me. Sometimes I'll overhear a situation being discussed and it's almost like a switch gets turned on. Ten things I feel like I should say immediately come into my head, but I can't open my mouth.
Recently my youth group went out to witness. We went out in groups of three and just talked to people. I didn't, though... Not because I didn't know what to say, but it was like there was a battle going on between my head, heart, and mouth. In my head, I had replies up the wazoo, but I couldn't let them out. It was frustrating! I wanted so badly to reach out to these people and to help out my team, but when I tried to open my mouth, I froze. Fear completely took over me. Ever since that night, it has bugged me. Here God has given me this ability to help people, and I let fear get the best of me.
It's an amazing feeling when I can help someone. With my friends, they can come to me with anything and after some prayer, I can usually help them out. It's something that means a lot to me. I always want to be there for people and to be able to help them through things. I know well how wonderful it is to have a rock to cling to during a storm.
This summer, one of my big goals is to speak up. I don't want to let anymore opportunities slip by me. We aren't guaranteed a tomorrow with someone that we love. Sitting back and not taking every opportunity to be there, hug them, make them feel better, share Christ with them, and tell them how much I love them because I'm afraid isn't how I want to live my life! I want to be FEARLESSLY devoted to living my life for Christ!
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