I've dealt with a lot of... misinformed people this week. Rude teenage guys and know-it-all preteen girls have been thrown my way this week. On top of that, I had to say goodbye to two close friends as they head off for college. Needless to say, this has not been my favorite week. Almost every day has ended in my wanting to eat an entire carton of ice cream or cry, both of which I have somehow managed not to do. I'm generally not the girl who just sits down and cries over one thing that went wrong. I'm the one who lets things build and build until I reach the end of my rope and lose it all at once. I'm nearing the end of my rope and I apologize to anyone that I've been snippy with lately! I'm working hard tonight to get past this week. Let me explain myself a little...
On Tuesday night, both my faith in God and the sincerity behind what I write here on my blog were attacked. Because of lies and exaggerations made about me, a friend of mine was made to believe that I talked behind his back. His reaction was to say that I was not a true Christian and that I did not live out what I say on my blog. I just wanted to say that I mean and try to live out everything that I write. I mess up, of course, and I'll never pretend that I don't. I do not want those of you who read this to think that I only write what I do to be a people-pleaser or make myself seem better than I am. In every post I make I highlight my many mistakes. Why would I post something for everyone to read if I didn't mean it? I post things here to be honest, to be helpful to others, and to help myself stay true to what I say. When there are people that you know well reading what you say that you want to do, aren't you more likely to work toward it? It's much easier to forget a commitment that you have made when it's kept to yourself.
Also, I pray that none of you think that only proclaim Christ but that you know that He is everything to me. He is my Savior, my Father, my Creator, my Sustainer, and my Strength. I am nothing without Him. Being called a false Christian hurt me so deeply that I cannot even explain it. It makes me sad that it was thought about me. I'm going to try even harder than I already was to let Him shine through me. There shouldn't be room for question and I'm ashamed that there was. Everything that I do is done for Him. I know that I fail Him, I fail Him every single day of my life, but that does not mean that I don't try my hardest to please and obey Him.
So, Tuesday night threw me off this whole week. Little things were made a much larger deal in my head. Saying goodbye to a friend was really tough, which threw me off even more. Then topping it off tonight was two preteen girls being extremely rude to me after I defended my cousin against their teasing. However, I am trying to focus on the good things that did happen this week. Like, today is the sixth birthday of one of my favorite little boys ever! Happy birthday, Sam! It has been a treat watching you grow up these past few years, a treat I'm looking forward to as the years go on. You are pretty much the sweetest little boy ever and I pray that you never, ever change. Like, at all. <3
On Tuesday night, both my faith in God and the sincerity behind what I write here on my blog were attacked. Because of lies and exaggerations made about me, a friend of mine was made to believe that I talked behind his back. His reaction was to say that I was not a true Christian and that I did not live out what I say on my blog. I just wanted to say that I mean and try to live out everything that I write. I mess up, of course, and I'll never pretend that I don't. I do not want those of you who read this to think that I only write what I do to be a people-pleaser or make myself seem better than I am. In every post I make I highlight my many mistakes. Why would I post something for everyone to read if I didn't mean it? I post things here to be honest, to be helpful to others, and to help myself stay true to what I say. When there are people that you know well reading what you say that you want to do, aren't you more likely to work toward it? It's much easier to forget a commitment that you have made when it's kept to yourself.
Also, I pray that none of you think that only proclaim Christ but that you know that He is everything to me. He is my Savior, my Father, my Creator, my Sustainer, and my Strength. I am nothing without Him. Being called a false Christian hurt me so deeply that I cannot even explain it. It makes me sad that it was thought about me. I'm going to try even harder than I already was to let Him shine through me. There shouldn't be room for question and I'm ashamed that there was. Everything that I do is done for Him. I know that I fail Him, I fail Him every single day of my life, but that does not mean that I don't try my hardest to please and obey Him.
So, Tuesday night threw me off this whole week. Little things were made a much larger deal in my head. Saying goodbye to a friend was really tough, which threw me off even more. Then topping it off tonight was two preteen girls being extremely rude to me after I defended my cousin against their teasing. However, I am trying to focus on the good things that did happen this week. Like, today is the sixth birthday of one of my favorite little boys ever! Happy birthday, Sam! It has been a treat watching you grow up these past few years, a treat I'm looking forward to as the years go on. You are pretty much the sweetest little boy ever and I pray that you never, ever change. Like, at all. <3
Sometimes others question in you what they doubt in themselves...you are an amazing girl, who I am delighted to have as a role model for my daughter. Keep your chin up! And give that birthday boy a hug for me.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Danielle! That means so much to me! <3 Miss you guys!!
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